Tomorrow I will get to train this thing that mothers have to do all along the way…letting loose…Tomorrow Alva is starting daycare and I have to say, it is a bit overwhelming. I am fighting a lot of guilt feelings that are coming up with the fact of being away from my son most hours of the day, and sadness to not be the first anymore to witness his small and big new achievements.
We were fortunate to find a place were Alva will be surrounded by nice people and other babies his age, and I am confident it is a place where he will feel good and happy.
I know that we will both need a while to get used to the new routine and that it will be very important for me to be entirely there for him in the hours he will spend with us at home. Putting away my phone, closing my computer and direct my thoughts to my family.
The whole thing of letting loose is more easy to think about than to bring into action.